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August 30th 2014

It’s Monday. I’m going home at 6pm and a middle aged man and a teenage boy are the only people left on the bus with me. I consider the fact that because the driver is also a man I am the only person left on the bus with the correct genetic makeup for boobs. I’m automatically scared, scared because of my own anatomy. I wonder how old I was when I realized that my own body was going to be the cause of the constant anxiety and fear I feel in situations like this. I get off at the last stop and the older man smiles at me while following me up the street. His smile drips, drips, drips and my heart is pounding, pounding, pounding. He turns off down another road, but I run the rest of the way home.

Not all men.

I’m at home on a Tuesday, beginning to plan the travels I want to go on next year. I dream of wandering the streets and meeting strangers. I just can’t wait to escape the city I’ve lived in for 17 long years. But… my mum is hesitant. She’s forever worried about the danger that being a young girl traveling alone can bring. I’ll be alone and she’s scared. Surely I’m invincible. I feel invincible. But I know, I know this danger is real and I can’t help but think to myself, if I feel unsafe in my own city, how am i going to feel in a strange place with strange men who don’t speak the same language as me? If I was my brother planning this, I would probably just be wondering if European girls are going to be hot.

Not all men.

Wednesday is a beautiful sunny day but I’ve always been told that I don’t have a “nice enough body” to wear a bikini on the beach. Ever since I was 6 years old I’ve thought that having tummy fat was ugly. That skin that doesn’t have a perfectly golden glow is undesirable. I amble to a clear patch of sand in my one piece and I can feel pairs of eyes latching onto me. Hairy men in speedos who I don’t look twice at eat into my body with their stares. I’m a piece of meat. I am a piece of meat? I am here for their amusement. Please don’t let me be eaten alive.

Not all men.

Thursday night two friends and I are walking to our god damn school dance when we hear “Jesus look at you! You sluts heading to a pole?” These words snarl out of the mouth of a respectably dressed man and we stop in horror. Shivers roll up my back in fear. It’s dark. We are alone. What. Do. We. Do??? One of us pulls the finger back. I can never be sure how quickly a sexist man can get angry so we walk quickly away. We’re angry, so so angry. But also so… deflated. I wonder if we deserve this shame.

Not all men.

Sitting on the internet, Friday night and scrolling down my Facebook newsfeed:

“Haha, good job at the game today bro. You RAPED them!”
“Damn with tits like that, you’re asking for it :P”

Another sexist comment…
Another sexist comment…
Another sexist comment…

I’m shrinking and shrinking and shrinking and I want to CRY because these boys don’t realize how small they make me feel with just pressing a few keys. I see these boys on the streets, I talk to these boys, I laugh with these boys. Dear GOD, dear GOD i hope these boys don’t think actions speak louder than words…

Not all men.

Three rules that have been drilled into me since I was young run through my mind at 1.30am on a Satur… Sunday Morning:

-Don’t ever talk to strange men
-Don’t ever be alone at night in a strange place
-Don’t ever get into a car with a stranger

I break all 3 of these laws as I pull open the taxi door. Making light conversation with the driver, he doesn’t see my sweaty hand clutching the small pocket knife I keep hidden on me at all times. He doesn’t even realize the fear I feel at his mere presence. He cannot comprehend it, he never will. How easy would this 15 minute car ride be if I was born a boy?

Not all men.

It comes to Sunday, another snoozy, sleepy, Sunday and someone has the AUDACITY to tell me not all men are rapists. I say nothing.

I’m a 17 year old girl.
When I am walking alone and it’s dark, it’s all men.
When I am in a car with a man I don’t know well, it’s all men.
When men drunkenly leer at me on the streets, it’s all men.
When a boy won’t leave me alone at a party, it’s all men.

Not all men are rapists. But for a young girl like me? Every one of them has the potential to be.


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Yeah, and even when you are older you still feel like a prey.

August 30th 2014


Scandal Behind The Scenes : Season 1
I miss season 1 

Can you tell me from what footage is it from? On the s1 DVD? Because I don’t have this on my DVD…

August 28th 2014
August 27th 2014



August 27th 2014
Favorite olitz and/or scandal scene?
asked by Anonymous


Oh my gosh I love this question!!! Thank you for asking it!!!

My favorite Olitz scene is the fight in the hospital. It is just everything that makes that couple fab!

My favorite Scandal scene is Olivia’s breakdown in Fitz’s closet. Kerry is just flawless.

Ditto for the breakdown scene! The first time I saw it, it brought me to tears because it felt so genuine! Heartbreaking!

August 27th 2014
Does Tony get along with Scott & Josh? He sometimes seems a bit on the outside of things.
asked by Anonymous



Hmmmm…..think about each of these of these people and you should be able to figure it out.

JM likes to pull hs pranks. That alone should say enough about what kind of relationship he could have with Tony.

“HS pranks”?? What is it?
August 27th 2014
With whom did Columbus have run-ins?
asked by Anonymous


How about I tell you who it wasn’t and you use your powers of deduction. It was not a woman or Jeff Perry or Tony Goldwyn.

Leaves Guillermo & Scott… But G seems so calm & nice, couldn’t imagine him in an argument lol

August 27th 2014



Game of Scandal

The only promo that might tempt some back for Season 4!

Oh yes! I’d be there with bells on if this was the case. 

Oh boy ! 😂😂😂
August 27th 2014



When you’re watching a new episode of your favorite show and someone tries to get you to do something:


That is so accurate that’s it’s scary.

August 27th 2014
How long is Scott Foley's contract with ABC?
asked by Anonymous


Only the leads have long contracts. I believe the supporters all have it that the network can option out of their contract at any point. But I am not totally sure and with Scott Foley coming in later and his reputation with ABC there could be stipulations that are different.